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→ Jul 2012 I could be out with my boyfriend and our roommates at a housewarming being sociable and drunk, or out with tafe friends at a fellow students 21st, but instead I’m sitting alone in my room, listening to feist, feeling sad for myself and the world and my general mental state with a litre of cider, before considering the bottles of red wine downstairs in the kitchen. I don’t know why I still feel this way when my life contains everything I could ever want, yet this insatiable, unsatisfied longing wastes me away. I am scared of drugs because I don’t think I could handle feeling this way afterwards again, I would want the bliss release forever. 

I could be out with my boyfriend and our roommates at a housewarming being sociable and drunk, or out with tafe friends at a fellow students 21st, but instead I’m sitting alone in my room, listening to feist, feeling sad for myself and the world and my general mental state with a litre of cider, before considering the bottles of red wine downstairs in the kitchen. I don’t know why I still feel this way when my life contains everything I could ever want, yet this insatiable, unsatisfied longing wastes me away. I am scared of drugs because I don’t think I could handle feeling this way afterwards again, I would want the bliss release forever. 

I could be out with my boyfriend and our roommates at a housewarming being sociable and drunk, or out with tafe friends at a fellow students 21st, but instead I’m sitting alone in my room, listening to feist, feeling sad for myself and the world and my general mental state with a litre of cider, before considering the bottles of red wine downstairs in the kitchen. I don’t know why I still feel this way when my life contains everything I could ever want, yet this insatiable, unsatisfied longing wastes me away. I am scared of drugs because I don’t think I could handle feeling this way afterwards again, I would want the bliss release forever. 

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  1. hollower said: This is very much me tonight although I did go to that housewarming in my sad, unstable state and lasted 20 minutes before riding back home. Hope you’re feeling better come morning.
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